Well its been a long time since I posted, so here is an update so far about my life and what is new. I’m sorry if it is a little boring, but please bare with me and I hope it all becomes clear towards the end.
I passed the 20-Hour Weekend course. It was a little nerve wreaking at first, but after the ice breakers we all relaxed and really enjoyed ourselves. I was surprised to find out that I was the only one on the course who wants to go to Japan to teach. Most wanted to go to Thailand or to Brazil or Spain. It works out better for me as I don’t have many going for jobs there.
I finished my application for a position there last week. I am only waiting back for a reply to a question I sent last Thursday with regards to a query about References. Hopefully, I should hear back from them soon, so I can fully completely my application and get to the next stage that is the phone interview.
Well I persevered and made a painting on A4 using water colour and drawing Ink. But then I painted a bigger version on a canvas I got for my birthday this year. It might not sound like much but I really wanted to experiment using Ink in my work. I think it all turned out really well: http://sazzy-bu.deviantart.com/art/Sweet-Breeze-Canvas-328949022
I have also added some more images to my Society 6 profile. I have had a few people promote my work so far, however, I’ve yet to have anyone buy a piece. But my work is still progressing, so I’m not that surprised. http://society6.com/SazzyBu
Well the work is currently on hold till we get an electrician in to certify all the wiring. Only then will I will be happy fully finishing the decorating. But the water and gas isn’t connected at all. I am hoping to moving in before Christmas. I really need to get out of my parents house and live on my own. I’ve been too dependent for far too long now. I need to get back on my feet rather than secluding myself in my bedroom as its the only place that is really “My Space”. That I really have too much things in my room. Its all piled in so I don’t take over the spare room in the house. It just means that I have plenty of things to fill up my own house. Especially clothes wise. Even my art work is piling up too now. I really want to see what its like on the walls. Guess I will have to wait.
Well…. its still non-existent. There is someone that I like but I think its more unrequited than anything. Not that I really blame them. I am a strange person and I think it takes a lot to understand me. That I don’t think I’m good enough for them. A friend gave me a funny look when I agreed to that part. I really do wish that I didn’t have this low self-esteem. I just need to find someone to give me the right boost. But at the same time, I don’t think anything will ever happen as I want to leave in March next year (that is if everything goes to plan. I wanted to leave soon but that isn’t going to happen).
I would like for things to nicely fit into place, but I will have to see how things go for now. Its a lot of waiting, especially for work. Then there is the factor that I need to decide on what I really want to do. Do I confess or do I keep quiet and watch them be with someone else. So confusing but I honestly don’t know what to really do.